Hang on by a thread!

Today, I am at the bottom of that dark, dark hole!  I see no light.  I  don't want to live like this any longer.  With suicide not an option, what can I do?  I am in so much pain, mentally.  In this world I have no value.  Oh God take me to Heaven now!  Let me out of this hell on earth!  I  love my kids and grandkids so much.  I don't want to be a burden to them any longer.  I can't even speak to my friends any longer, as I feel like such a terrible burden.  I have drawn myself into a little cocoon.  It is the only place I feel safe right now.   Lord, I am hanging on to a tiny thread, to the fact that your word says you love me!  That you value me. That you say, you have a purpose for me.  Lord I believe your word, even though I can't see or feel it right now.  That is what I will hang on to!!!  Lord I pray that you will lift me up, remind me that it is You who loves me, and treasures me!  Your the one Lord who matters, not these people here on earth especially the one who know just where to put the knife and twist it.  No more shall he bring me down!!!  No more!!!  Strengthen me Father, Strengthen me!!!  People always will let me down, but you Lord God are with me always, and will lead me in the way I should go.  I thank you Father for that!